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All is full of ... snow. It hasn't stopped snowing since yesterday. A real blizzard.

Hoping for this kind of weather tomorrow. Snow and sun. That'll be fun!

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The fog has cleared and snow fallen upon it all. The backbone of this week is broken and a heart had some time to be mended, or at the very least, calmed. Im still waiting for that particular Email, but since mine is not read, an answer can not be sent.

Waiting. A not too popular activity, right? Like a frozen snowflower inbetween two windowglasses. Blocking the light, the view, as being the view itself. A cklock that ticks but does not move. A womans life full of waiting. For someone or something. Him, her and the milestones set by life itself. A constant way of being.? 

A dear friend said once: don't look down on housewives. And i never will again.

 

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Kus on see pausi nupp siin elus? Hea meelga vajutaks. Ja läheks siis kööki võileiba tegema.

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He knows. 

But as i don't tie my photographs necessarily with my posts, this shouldn't be an exeption.

Martin is in Australia and im out of sleep. And I'll be out of sleep for a too long time in my opinion. Granny is here to help and it's nice to eat 3 times a day a warm meal, but it doesn't change the fact that im desperatly in need of some slumbertime myself. At least some quiet-time. 

Please cross your fingers, that Juss decides to start sleeping again more than 45 minutes at a time. Im happy even with just 3 little hours. As granny says that he needs to sleep in his own bed, and I kind of agree, i slept maybe all together 2 hours, maybe 3, last night.. starting from 23 until 8 in the morning.  

People without children, appreciate your night-time rights :)!

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Die Musik spielt zu Hause eine wichtige Rolle. Wir versuchen mit einer Vogelgezwitscher-CD einen Schlummerzeit-Signal zu konstruieren. Bis jetzt erfolglos, meiner Meinung nach. Anstatt Vögel ist jetzt Mono drann. Sie spielten in Riga am 15. November und sogar Tickets hatten wir besorgt, doch es ging nicht: nach Juss's Erkältung war ich drann und danach fühlte ich mich wir eine ausgepresste Zitrone. Bin aber froh, dass ich die Chance mal hatte. In Nantes. Jetzt spielen sie jeden Abend hier bei mir. Zu empfehlen... aber nur in guter tonqualität.

Meine Nich-Oma-aber-Verwantin-die-doch-auch-wie-eine-Oma-ist hat mir neue Hausschue geschenkt. Nun laufe ich hier wie auf Wolken.  

Detusch, Deutsch, Deutsch. Vorgestern besuchte ich eine Vorlesung... eine Lehrkraft sprach mich davor an... und ich sto-sto-sto-tterte was hin. Das Ohr hörte nicht mehr gut und die Zunge wuste nicht mehr wohin-warum. Peinlich-peinlich. Doch so einfach geht's mit dem Vergessen. Die Vorlesung war interessant. Der Professor interessanter. Ich mag's wenn doch ein paar witzige Kommentare im Referat sind, oder besser, wenn kleinwenig improvisiert wird. 

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My original thought was not to post any posts at night anymore, because they seemed to be a bit too melancholic. But as i am sleepless right now, i decided to look the other way, for once. Again.

I don't know how it happend. Time has started to run, galloping over the frosty meadows, into the woods, into the dark winter. My heart is pounding fast, while the clock keeps ticking away. Our diamond, our cristal, our apple of the eye, our wonderful gift from the universe, our son. He's just awesome. Telling tales in his own language. Highlights of the day.

Now for every sunday, for 4 hours, i'll be doing something. It'll be finished by christmas. I hope it'll turn out just as great as i imagine. Maybe that's why i can't sleep: im just too exited?

It's been monday for an hour now. Have some blues:

 

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We re-watched the Matrix trilogy this week (pressing pause when Juss needed some sleep-nursing.). I was 13 when the first one came out, and to be honest, i didn't get much of the dialogue then. Just remembered awesome Keanu and miss Moss, and all that leather flying around. 

But if you've got some time on your hands, why not watch something you've already seen, but it's been a long while. It's interesting to find out how you remembered things and how they really were, or looked like. During time people gain new knowledge and that affects how things can ... just to be all matrixy... be decoded. We had some nice discussions later. 

As a review: Matrix and Super Mario are kind of  similar. The Quest, the One, saving everyone, here and there a little religion knitted into it, here and there some mythology. We were reminded of many other movies and scenarios, one of them was Lord of the Rings. The good and the bad.. uhgh. Shrugging my sholders.

And of course it's the same with books; meaning that the perspective changes. Just might take some more time. Im still working on my catch-up with the newspapers.

Have a nice weekend!

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On Sunday Martin celebrated his first Fathers-day :)

Time is flying. We are expecting teeth. Already!? By christmas, im sure, at least 2. It feels as im supposed to send him off to school next week. He grows so fast. 

November has been so far an emotional ride.

On the Weekend we went to a gathering of the previous members of the student theater. It was so good to see old friends again. Some of them stopped by at our place on friday aswell. Juss has some crazy aunts now, who sure know how to keep you laughing the whole night. 

Having jobs, raising babys... guess we're all grown up now, huh!?

Neh, no, we're not. Same old- same old.  

On Sunday it was my turn to have a red nose. But at least now we know why i wasn't feeling all that well the past week - it was all just building up to a mega running red nose.

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The things they* don't recommend you to eat while pregnant:

- aloe
   I bought a big bottle of aloe-juice in my first trimester, but after one sip it was a "no" from all my senses.
-saffron
  again, ... had a saffron-soup at a restaurant and couldn't eat it.
- parsley
   both parsley and saffron are mentioned as ingredients, that could harm the pregnancy itself. scary.
   but already the smell makes one stay away from it.
- soft drinks
   everything bubbly can cause this acidy feeling in the stomac.
- alcohol
   even red wine. I enjoyed alcohol-free beer or root-beer, since it's actually healthy and nutritious.

In the last trimester it's also advised to stop eating sweets and wheat, since the nutritive value is not so great as the baby could just gain weight and get too big. I didn't stop really... but i tried hard to kind of stay balanced. Less pasta, more rice.

Well, that's all i can remember now. I'll edit it, when something pops up again in my mind.

*a bunch of books and my pregnancy-joga-instructor.

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Juss has been stuck at home for almost two weeks. It was his first time to have a cold and a running nose. Luckly it was not too serious and now he's much better. But we still wait a couple of days until we hit the outdoors. (hmm...) You can't really comfort a Little One with nothing else than hugs and kisses, however that doesn't take away the uncomfortable feeling of being sick. Im happy to see him getting better and in a good mood. But the sleepingscedule is a disaster. I spent just two hours putting him to his nap and it ended with tears and he's back playing with his toys, utterly tired and im at the end of my wits. Therefore Martin took him to a car-ride. Maybe it'll work.

November is by far the gloomiest month here. It's wet and cold, and without the snow, also kind of dark. I wish to get some christmaslights and cinamon-candles to make the days and evenings a bit sweeter and brighter, so i'll be hunting for that in the weekend.

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Have a great weekend!
Be loaded with zoul :)

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This couch is in our wintergarden, which since the snow came, is like a fridge. It would be nice to spend another summer in this apartment. As we arrived, the wintergarden was full of furniture and seemed unused. Martin did a great job making it the best place to be in the early summermornings and  late summernights (during the day it got too hot). This couch kind of reminds me of home. It's a piece of furniture that usually old people have, or students. It's like sitting at granddads. Once i almost asked an old man if he'd want to be my granddad. It was on a bus and he seemed to be lonely. Juss also has no granddads. Well technically...but still... no granddads. Yet the more awesome are the grannys though! 

Anni, my mom and Juss in July. Anni, my moms neighbor, had her 99th birthday last week. She's been like a granny to me since when i was a child. Due to this day i still get candy from her, when i visit. Refusal is not possible :)

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Just feels a bit like receiving a present. Thank you Uli, ♥! for displaying my photograph. And for being an inspiration.
Ulrika Kesteres blog is definetly something, that makes me smile, a lot. Try it! It works ;)