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Sleep.

What an luxurious thing. 

Last week, or was it a week before, i finished a book by Bulgakov and was looking for something new to read. Right now i can't even imagine when i was able to do that? Maybe while our little one was asleep, but yeah, that's not happening recently. 

There is a book by Elizabeth Pantley about how to teach children to fall asleep and sleep through the night.Without a single tear :) Im still in the beginning. There's a task of writing down an exact sleepscedule and how surprised i was of how little slumbertime we get. I knew that it's less than we had before,(first two months were actually fabulous) but 3,5 hours max? Thats heavy...

But im sure that i could never do the "cold turky sleeping method" thing... exept wanting to turn my little one into a turky (who would want that :D ?), it feels just unnatural. As mammals divide into ones that hide their babies (as they go hunting for food for exampl.foxes) and to those who carry them with them; even the consistence of the mothermilk depends on in; humans are the latter. We, like monkeys (most of them, i think, no expert here :)) carry our babies and hold them in our arms. Ignoring a cry of a baby is like ignoring a cry for help. How can i teach trust, when i cultivate the feeling of being abandoned?

I was surprised to see that this method of letting your child cry in the next room until she/he throws up or faints or falls asleep from exhaustion, is (still) so popular, or that it even (still) exists. I can only say that i really-really hope my mom didn't try that on me :)) I don't even dare to ask (it was the 80es, but still).

Our sleep here is divided: in the evening we put Juss to sleep together, then Martin sleeps next to him, while i  do some editing or chores or have some time for myself, at night i nurse our baby and in the morning i get some extra hours (from 6-8) while the guys have some play-time. It works, but we're still a bit too tired in my opinion. But as i have friends who have tried the no-cry sleepsolution and were successful, im looking forward to the next chapter.