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I remember some kind of anxiety, being so determined before the weekend to visit this and that store and finding the perfect drying rack as if everything depended on it. My legs were almost numb, but it was still important to figure out standing in front of those shelves, if we need these things to make frozen yoghourt now, or should i find better ones. 

Somewhere in my heart i knew that there wasn't really much time left. This is how i  see it now, at that time i thought i have plenty of time. At least a week or two. Since the statistics say that. The appartment was a mess, and it was still a mess as we came home from the hospital. Our moms did the best they could by cleaning everything on saturday, but things still weren't put in place. I tried also my best on that day, but then concentrated to get  t h e  b a g  ready. As our moms went home, we went out to town, ate cake and took a long walk chatting and planning maybe a quik birth rehersal on sunday. 'cos ther's pleenty of time. Martin went  to a friends birthdayparty, i watched a movie at home. Nothing was happening.

But just as he came home at midnight and we were going to bed...there it was . Actually in the morning i had the same kind of "feelings" but as they were not regular and disapeared after a while, we thought of it as false alarm. (It is also advised, if all is well, to stay at home as long as  possible, walk,  rest or even eat. But it means that one has to know the symptoms, when it's not.) About 3.30 am Martin called a cab and as we were riding towards the hospital, we were still not really beliving that tonight's the night. As we stepped out into the warm night to get into the cab, i saw a huge moon in the sky. It was the largest and most golden moon i've ever seen. There was no pain, just exiting curiosity.

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