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It's getting warmer again and someone is fretting because it means a break from skiing. The rest of us stay home with a running nose and itchy teeth.
I dream of HaggenDazz and of mediterranean holydays. It was just one of those days where there was a lot of tears and snot and sleepless hours. I feel like im run over by a truck.

Not to eat sweets for 30 days? What was i thinking! Now, tomorrow it's pancakes and sirup, what ever may be! :)

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Sometimes i think my mom should've been a director of some sort, movie or theater, i think she has a good eye. I really like this picture she took from her livingroom window.

Todays post will be about a book. 

I finally got to read some books on my list! Last week i finished David Lodge "Thinks...". Martin and my mom had already gone it through and recommended it like the article from Sirp. During the holidays i picked up another book at moms readingtable: Lodge's "Small world" and the first chapters were hilarious! So i had a bit false hopes when i started "Thinks..". But. It's definetly a book i don't regret reading, it started some great discussions and thoughts. It was a pleasure to read and to get all those references to sience and literature. Sometimes i feel i should be more confident... just because im no quotingmachine, doesn't mean that i don't know something. Oo.. this weekend i got Goethe quoted to me as i said i studied german literature... and not the mainstream quotation or anything.. as a matter of fact: it was so long and all, that it couldve been anything, really. I don't know Faust by heart. Honestly :)

There is only this one thing about "Thinks.." that bothered me and kind of ruined my impression.... I woun't say anything further to keep you from spoilers. Maybe as time passes and i get over that, i'll see the whole thing in better light again. But Lodge is an interesting writer and "Small world" is on my list!

So, as i don't want to give any stars and such, i'll just say... read, liked, recommended.

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My notebook was full of skribble and it was turning into something like some hosts you may know from parties where everything is overorganized, so that you don't even have the chance to get to know someone or catch up with old friends, since the programm of the evening is rushing you from one thing to antoher, and you feel a bit like you're back in kindergarden. So i ignored my notebook, the deadlines created for myself, and let life happen.

I passed my 13-day-challenge not to eat sweets. It didn't turn into a 30-day-challenge mainly because i couldn't say no to homemade cheesecake, but who could, right?

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Today i got SO confused. My sunday painting course finished today and i can't say im satisfied with my work, but i give myself credit for being a beginner: i had just some fun qualitytime for myself. Then again, our teacher keeps praising. For one, she needs to, to keep us, the amateurs, motivated, but sometimes it felt sincere. And then the slight panic started... should i have gone to an art school? Did i miss my chance? Must i register for the next course? Or else this will be my first and last painting? Do i really have some tallent? But everyone has tallent. Do i have the work ethicks? And why is this bothering me?! :)

I had some fun thinking about all this.

Then i thought today, that for once i really liked a james bond film. Skyfall. Surprising.

And then i thought  about this weekend and how strange i felt in some hours. "Strange" is the right word. Or maybe "stranger" ? There is this moment in some mommy-talks, where you really don't want to talk about it any more, the topics run out, and when both parties realize, that there isn't anything else.. it gets quiet. I experienced it twice, two days in a row. First i thought i was just tired, out of energy to ask stuff, but then i realized it might be because these friendships based on the motherhood thing... i didn't know them (well) before. So i have no idea who these women are outside their apron and babycarriage... something that can be fixed, but is a tricky one.

My mom was always so proud of me and would quote what i've said at work and with friends... that when i got old enough to understand this, i very much disliked it. And that's why im also not good at writing about my baby, i guess.

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♥ Looking back at 2012 ♥

Part III

For this part i took pictures that were taken with film, to keep it on balance. There would be a lot to write about as well. But another time, we'll see :) 

♥ September- my favourite month (with october)♥

♥ October ♥

♥ Novemeber we met some friends! And a film that would be ruined by a clerk in the shop ;P ♥

♥ December brought snow!♥

We had a great new years eve, with my best friend from childhood times. It was a wonderful night, we saw some beautiful fireworks from the livingroom window and my mom was happy that we came, since on christmas i had a fever and we didn't go anywhere.

And yes, i also think that there should be more pictures with me too! So this year, honey, you take the snaps as well ;) !

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A. Did the guy, whom you gave your film on saturday, call you?
B. No. Why?
A. Well, im sorry to inform you, but your film got stuck in the machine. Half of it is with distorted colors and half of it got some light, as he pulled it out. 
B. *my face went* O.O
A. Yes, well, I really apologize for him. Want them on paper anyway?
B. Okay...
A. For free of course.
B. *sigh*


Never again shout into the internet-cosmos about this.. seems to bring some mixed luck.

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January came with mild temperatures and a cruel wind. In no time the streets were covered with glass, making the pedastrians move like pigeons and penguins. On monday the last film of last year will be developed. Since shortly winter has shown her beautiful but harsh side again, the people who ski rejoice. The developed film has to wait prehaps, because Juss's cheeks are too precious and the wind here likes to bite them.

Today we went to Kaur's birthdayparty (by car, altho it's maybe 20 minutes walk from here, but it was too cold for the little men). Kaur is now one year old. Awesome! Here on the photo he's just a month or so old, and with his Papa Leno, who by the way is the best cook ever (think i sat the whole evening behind a plate with rice and beans and salad and lamb and chicken... ) and also a cool painter. Kaurs mom recently translated a book of verse into estonian by Humberto Ak'abal. Such beautiful and capable people. Ak'abals poems were our christmaspoems this holiday and i think we turned some heads. 

Happy birthday to you and your precious family, little Kaur!

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♥ Looking back at 2012 ♥

Part II

♥Juss and the big bunny in July♥

♥Our dear friends to see us. Greetings to Paris!♥

♥July and September, someone is growing fast!♥

to be continued...

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Happy 2013 to you all !!!

I thought i'd share some nice moments of 2012 with you :)

♥ Of our biggest adventure, to be precise ♥

Part I

♥ Here i am, just hours before it all started! Going out for a cake in the centre city. Things are already moving along ♥

♥The next morning. Hello, Papa!♥

♥ May, such a beautiful weather! A great time to be born and to be fresh parents ♥

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♥ Busy June. Papa has a Phd. now. And this little man is just our greatest treasure! ♥

Bisous! A bientôt!